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  • Jan 7, 2023
  • 6 min read

Updated: Feb 21

Elsie Lockheart leant against the gunwale of her schooner, elbow resting on the smooth dark wood, chin resting in her hand. With her other hand, she absentmindedly twisted a wild curl of her salt and pepper hair, loose from her thick braids. Her grey eyes stared straight into the pre-dawn darkness of the night at open ocean, but her thoughts weren’t on the eerily quiet shadow of the waves, though she watched them. Instead, it mulled over the past, and the future.

Today was her last day in this life. When the moon crossed the sigil star, signalling midnight, she’d be passing to the realm beyond.

Elsie fiddled with an old gold bracelet—the source of her last days. A year ago tomorrow, she and her crew had raided a treasure hoard belonging to an ancient queen. Being captain, she’d had the glory of kicking open the first and largest of the treasure chests, closest to the sarcophagus of the queen, and had the glory of taking the full hit of the curse that had seeped out of it. When the strange mist had faded and she was certain she’d still been alive, the crew had gathered around her, pushing and shoving until they were squeezed as close as physically possible, to all hear what a parchment on the top of the chest had said, ears straining to listen to her shaking voice as she read aloud.

Death in one year hence. Only an act of true love could break her curse.

She’d scoffed, but the crew—bless her sweet crew—had all tried to persuade her (then and every day since) to try to find her true love and break the curse.

“Bah,” she’d said then and every day since. She was a captain of a fine pirate crew, and had tasted freedom for every day of her life since she’d set foot on a ship. She wasn’t going to abandon that to live on land like a landlubber and become some timid wife, just for the sake of living a little longer.

If a year was all she had, she’d live it free, and she’d life it with her crew, on the best of adventures.

Elsie and her first mate and scoured sources for all the best treasure hoards and adventures, mapping out the routes that would take them on as many as they could fit into a year.

“Forget true love. I’ll give you all an adventure you’ll never forget!” She’d told them the night after she’d been cursed, crashing down maps upon maps on the deck planks. She’d knelt right there and spread them out, calling her crew to gather about as she pointed out each route they’d take.

She grinned as she saw their faces light up in awe and excitement, and she felt her heart soar.

A year to fit in as many adventures as they could.

They’d sailed to the rainforests of the west and trundled through deep greens, climbing old stone ruins in search for Aztec emeralds. Then, they’d sailed north and watched the herds of buffalo, hearing the roaring of the earth as they ran in the biggest mass of heaving beast they’d ever seen. Next, even further north to spy on the ice-folk, their pale, nearly translucent tails powering them through the icy waters, glossy thick skin and hair that frosted over as soon as they rose above the freezing waters, raising their webbed hands towards the moon and stars.

Now, Elsie smiled, remembering their other adventures and the riches they’d found. The night was giving way to day, and the first dregs of blue light were bleeding into the black sky. She turned to look at the night’s watchman yawning, eager for the next rotation to wake up and take his place. She felt a sad twinge. Her crew had gathered up a good wealth in their year of adventures, enough to easily cover life without her whatever they chose to do next. She could die resting easy that she’d done her best by them, at least financially.

But of course she felt sad for leaving them.

Not the one for emotional dramatics, Elsie tucked that wild curl behind her ear and stomped over the deck down to the warmth of the galley, wanting to talk to the chef about her last hurrah.

Her last night on earth.

Wanting to make it special, she’d asked for a feast on deck, with songs and tales and plenty of meat and drink as they watched the most spectacular natural show on earth—the winter northern lights.

A northern bird from birth, Elsie felt at home each time they sailed to the northern continent. It only felt right to die here.

The daylight came and their ship dropped anchor just off the coast. They spent the day preparing the deck for her final moment: cleaning the ship, washing down the deck, making it gleam. Blankets came out and thick coats and furs were laid out and worn. A small fire started in the fire bowl, and warm alcohol was passed out. Celebrations began early as soon as chores were done, and for once, Elsie didn’t chastise the crew for their early merriment.

Today was for fun and memory.

Meat had never tasted so good, and cheeks were red from laughter and rum. The chef had pulled out all the stops, and he collapsed in a heap on the deck amongst laughter as the crew fed him and brought him spirits as reward.

Elsie never knew she could laugh so much, her sides felt like they’d split.

Not even Hastings getting so drunk she challenged everyone to a men v women belching contest could ruin Elsie’s good mood.

And then, the lights started, and everyone fell quiet and lay on the deck in a bunch in awed silence, staring at the lights. Blue and pink and green and yellow and purple like the smoothest silk cloth from over the world being tossed about above in a dance.

“Captain?” As the lights faded from the sky.

Elsie hummed back in response.

“Speech?”

She watched as her crew lazily propped themselves up, too drunk and tired to stand. She was too.

“Eh,” she forced herself to sit up, and she smiled about her at the faces peering through the firelight. Else thought about the year with them and grinned. “I’m getting old. I’ve had a good life. It ain’t no surprise—you can see the grey hairs coming on my head. And half of them are from you all, ya ugly bunch!”

They snickered, and someone toasted to it, making everyone else join in.

Else waited again until they were all hushed and looking at her once again.

“I don’t know what to say. It’s been a good life, and this year’s been the best of it. A fine way to go.

You’ve been a treat, and I can’t thank you all enough for stickin with me through it all.” She sighed. “I do love you all—peg legs, glass eyeballs, smelly breath, stormy times, and all.”

When the drinking died down, they all looked up at the sky. The moon was reaching the sigil star.

“I’ll see you all again, in the next life. I hope this year’s been a lesson to live your best life until then.”

Hastings launched herself in a snotty wail at her captain, crashing Elsie into her furs on the deck floor. It signalled the rest of the crew to pile in around them, and Elsie let out a chuckle as the ugliest ragtag bunch of pirates that scared the breeches off any sane sailor piled around like litte children.

“Oh you all …”

The held her arm up, looking at the damn cursed bracelet one last time, accepting her fate as she lay amongst those she adored best. She was ready.

The bracelet broke, crashing falling in pieces about them. She turned her face against the pieces just in time.

A mist lifted over the ship, and the last of the flames died out, leaving them in the weak moonlight.

So this is the end.

The moon passed the sigil star, and her last moment came. But when the moon trailed past, Elsie was still lying there, waiting. Blinking as the mist dissipated. Breathing.

Still breathing.


  • Mar 10, 2022
  • 4 min read

Updated: Feb 21

‘That’s ridiculous. Demi-humans can’t go to space.’


My tail bristled as I heard the same thing I’d heard for years repeated at me yet again, this time by the director of the National Human Space Agency. I grit my teeth for a moment before taking a breath and continuing, trying to stay polite and formal.


‘And what is your reasoning?’


The director looked me up and down. His old grey eyes stung like lasers, so I could feel his gaze brush past my best suit and look only at the maple colour of my fur, the length of my claws and teeth, and at my ears poking up on top of my head. I subconsciously pulled at the cuffs of my sleeve and waited for the same-old excuse.


‘It’s been developed for decades to safely accommodate humans. There isn’t enough research to send a demi-human, let alone enough resources.’


A smile tugged on my lips, and I saw him push back in his large, comfy leather seat as my canines revealed themselves. The advantages of being a fox demi-human were the teeth, and I narrowed my eyes for the full effect. It worked. He swallowed. But I smiled more and tried to look overly happy to try to rub it in that I hadn’t meant to intimidate him, that he was just weak and scared of a poor fluffy creature like me.


‘You know the first mammal that was sent to space was a monkey, right?’ I said, gesturing airily with my hand to force me to let go of my sleeve and to not look nervous. ‘Then a load of dogs. Besides, demi-humans have more stamina and resilience than humans. I’m sure having a demi-human space exploration team would increase the research output of the NHSA and open new paths that human explorers couldn’t take before.’


He opened his mouth to interrupt me, but I pressed on, knowing the next time he spoke he’d end the time I had to and close the meeting.


‘Additionally, it would increase the financial support you receive from organisations over the world and support from demi-human charities and citizens. At the moment, having humans only is closing your opportunities, but did you know 67% of the current population is demi-human, and you’re missing out on all that support and funding? Imagine how much sooner you could achieve your research goals if your financial input increased by that much and you had the specialised demi-human staff to help carry it out in quicker times.’


‘There has never been a demi-human in space, girl,’ he growled, leaning forward in his chair and glaring.

I suppressed a sigh. I knew it would be tough, but I didn’t think they’d be this narrow-minded that they’d not even try to listen. My life-long dreams of going to space were looking less and less likely, and with this organisation as it was, they didn’t even let demi-humans get onto the control deck, let alone in the shuttle. It was support jobs only. Would my only hope be to make my own space agency? But I didn’t have the support or funds for that, and it was true that there were things that only demi-humans could do that would increase the research and exploration capabilities of the space age.


He continued to stare at me as I tried to think of one last thing I could say to at least make him think once I was gone. Resisting the urge to brush back the hair that was tickling my cheek, thinking it a move that would make me look weak and feminine in the glare of this old codger, I opened my mouth to try one last thing. But I stopped as he spoke first. He put down the pen he’d been clutching, leant back in his chair, and gave a dismissive wave.


‘Arrange a time next month with my secretary and bring your best research and data. You have 30 minutes to persuade me.’


Then, he looked down and picked up his pen, signalling my time to leave.


My tail flicked as I stood in disbelief. Then it swished. I left the room grinning so wide the secretary paled as she saw my teeth and stammered as I hastily arranged that meeting before he could call me back in to tell me to cancel it.


I left the NHSA humming and already planning my attack. I’d tell him the financial figures of the estimated first 5 years of demi-human support, charity names and links he could contact to make it work, the benefits of snake-people for cold-climate exploration and for beast-folk for durability and strength. Most importantly, fox-folk for planning and leadership and, of course, persuasion.


There’s a reason they say foxes are sly, because if there is something we want more than anything, we’ll get it.


For that reason, I knew that my dream of going to space was going to finally become true.

Updated: Feb 21

A little green elf stood in the centre of a human room, trying to ignore the shaking through his whole tiny body at the thought of a human walking in. The house was quiet, and it was the perfect place to practise. But he knew he had to be quick, just in case a human did come.


He squeezed his eyes, his face, his hands, and his toes, but still nothing happened.


The little elf let out a ragged breath, pouting to himself at being unsuccessful. All the other elves could, so why couldn’t he?


The little elf gritted his teeth and tried again, focusing with all his might.


There was a shuffle at the door.


‘What’re you doing?’


A little human girl peeked around the doorway, holding a ball, her eyes wide.


‘Shh. I’m practising not being seen,’ the little green elf said, forgetting that he wasn’t meant to let the humans see him.


‘Oh, sorry,’ said the human. ‘I suppose I should look away then.’


‘Yes please!’


But the little human padded into the room and stood and pretended not to watch.


The little elf tried and tried, and he saw the human glancing at him from the corner of his eyes, but no matter what, he knew the human could still see him. It wasn’t working.


‘I can’t do it!’ He wailed, turning around to look at the girl, trying to be sure she could still see him.


‘Shh, it’s okay,’ said the little human girl, rushing over and scooping him up with her hands. ‘I’ll help you.’


‘But I have to do it myself.’


‘Who said so?’


‘The elder elves. They say you’re meant to be invisible to humans all the time and only show yourself when you want, but I can’t turn invisible at all!’


The little green elf’s lip wobbled, and he slumped his shoulders as he sat in her hands, looking at her palms dejectedly.


He could feel the little girl’s large eyes on him, and then she spoke again.


‘What if you’re meant to be the first elf who is always seen? What’s wrong with that? Then you can talk to humans.’


The elf looked up. He hadn’t thought of that.


But are we allowed to talk to humans?


He covered his mouth quickly. He didn’t know. What if he wasn’t meant to be seen by her and that’s why the other elves were always invisible.


He shrugged and pouted again. ‘I just don’t know. All my siblings do it. And they tease me when I can’t.’


‘That’s not nice.’


‘No, it’s not. So I want to be able to turn invisible all the time because then they’ll stop.’


‘You really want to?’ The little human girl asked.


The little elf nodded, setting his face firm, determined.


The little girl sighed. ‘Okay.’ She put him back down. ‘How about this. I’ll stand guard outside the door so no one else comes in. You keep practising. Tell me when you think you’ve got it, and I’ll peek in and try to see you. Deal?’


The little green elf grinned. ‘Really?’


The human child nodded.


‘Okay!’


The human girl picked up her ball again and padded back outside the room, closing the door softly behind her. The little green elf could hear her throwing and catching the ball in the hallway, and he smiled.


This could work!


Knowing he had a safe practising space, the little green elf tried again, closing his eyes and focusing over and over on being invisible. Over and over, he tried again, and his hands and eyes hurt from squeezing so hard, and his breath became static.


Then, he felt something happen.


‘How about now?’ he squeaked out to the little girl, trying to keep focusing on this weird feeling in his body—like a fizzling and light airiness.


The little human child opened the door a little and peeked in, looking straight at him. ‘No, sorry. I can still see you.’


The little green elf sighed but tried not to feel dejected. ‘I’ll try again!’


She nodded and closed the door behind her again, this time rolling the ball around on the floor. The elf could hear it on the wooden floor.


He tried again, still squeezing his eyes, hands, face, trying so hard to become invisible that he didn’t realise he was holding his breath. He let it out in a spurt, gasping.


The little girl peeked in. ‘I heard a noise. Are you okay?’


She was looking straight at him again. Disappointed and tired, the little green elf flopped onto the floor. When he looked up at her, he saw the little girl looking at him in sympathy.


‘What if it’s not hard. What if it’s easy? But you think it’s hard, so you’re making it hard. My dad says the harder I think something is, the harder I make it. He tells me to relax and just try to enjoy what I’m doing. It’s easier then!’


She was still peeking around the doorway, and she offered to stay outside again one more time.


‘Try again! I’ll open the door when you tell me you’re ready.’


The little girl closed the door again, and this time, he didn’t hear her playing with the ball. Maybe she was just relaxing too. He listened to her doing nothing and tried to think about relaxing. All the other elves said it was easy and always looked relaxed. Maybe it was.


He took a deep breath and tried to relax. No clenching his teeth or hands this time. No squeezing his eyes shut this time. Instead, he just stayed lying on the floor and stared at the ceiling and listened to the girl doing nothing outside.


He felt another tingle. This time bigger.


But the little elf ignored it and kept relaxing, pretending he was becoming invisible like the air, just like his siblings had said, and relaxing, daydreaming about becoming a cloud and floating in the sky where no humans could see him.


His fingers and toes tingled. Then his nose.


This time, he imagined running around in the garden outside the little girl’s house, jumping and leaping in the wind secretly with no humans seeing him.


His belly tingled.


The door creaked open again. ‘Little elf?’


Footsteps came into the room, but the little elf was too busy daydreaming about flying on the wind.


‘Little green elf?’


The girl sounded anxious now, and she pattered about the room, looking for him.


I’m right here, what’s wrong? The little green elf wondered as he heard her call him again. I’ve not moved an inch.


‘Did you leave? I’m sorry if I couldn’t help you.’


The little green elf stopped pretending to be the wind and looked up at the girl. She really couldn’t see him. He looked down at his hands.


Have I … become invisible?


The little green elf got really excited, but when he looked back at the little girl, he saw that she looked really upset and had sat on her bed, pouting and rolling the ball around in her hands. His excitement dropped and he wondered how to turn back uninvisible.


‘It’s okay,’ he squeaked. ‘I’m right here!’


The girl looked up and tried to follow the noise.


‘Little green elf?’ She looked around. ‘But I can’t see you. Are you hiding?’


‘No, it worked! I turned invisible. Your help worked!’


The little girl’s face lit up, and she squinted her eyes as if that would help her to see him.


‘But I don’t know how to turn uninvisible now.’


He’d not listened to his elders or siblings at that part. He’d never needed to before, after all. Then, the little green elf got excited all over again. He jumped on the spot, and he felt his energy rise.


‘I’ll come back tomorrow! I’ll go ask them how—the elders.’ The little green elf turned to leave, and then he stopped. ‘I mean, can I?’


The girl grinned. ‘Of course! And I’ll stand guard again outside if you need me to.’


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